It is really amazing what a simple decision can do for a person in just a short amount of time. Last week, or two weeks ago I made the decision that I wanted to start the 13th cycle of daf yomi, I had been increasing my learning of mussar over that time, but still felt a disconnect from the Source of everything- Hashem. So, I told my wife that I wanted to start and she was very kind and encouraging- not that I expected anything less from my Aishes Chayil!
Exactly one week ago, I attending the Chicago Siyum HaShas, and it was truly inspirational, from the local Divrei Torah, to Rabbi Frand's speech given in New York, I was fired up like never before to learn! The next day I had to get up early for shacharis (something I have always struggled with) for a friend's daughter's naming. The next friday, the very next day actually was the first day for my shiur of the daf yomi cycle. I went, even attended a 6am shiur before davening! (Look at me!) and made it through day one unscathed. Fast forward to today, and I have attended every shiur, been to shacharis on time every day, and feel closer to my wife and to Hashem. Now, I just need to increase my chassidus learning, and all will be good. :)